"Under Construction... Sights & Sounds of Prosperity"

Ok...so I live in an older part of town...some houses date back into the late 1800's. A Pretty cool, once quiet, small farm type community. Mature trees, old cars parked in yards, the smell of horses and hay linger in the gentle breezes past my shady back yard...then...BANG, ROARRR, BZZZZTTT ...GROUND SHAKING-a flume of DUST blows past my rattling windows.
Yes, the old neighborhood is going the way of the "world"...commercial buildings GALORE. Pretty sad, yet part of life. It's all taking place RIGHT NEXT DOOR. I am NOT wanting to face the inevitable of this old house, built in 1938 by my husbands grandfather. Yes, with his own hands, for his wife, in whom he must have cherished to so lovingly put into place- every single nail, glass brick and handmade bookshelf , I'm sure, at her request.
As upsetting as this reality is drawing near- I do accept this as man's desire to create, improve and move forward in the world. I think as long as we still appreciate what has gone before us-the hard, old fashioned work, the "sweat of thy brow" and we instill this in our own lives...then we have never left anything good behind. We can adopt what we have learned and benefit from those who have worked so hard for us. The same theory applies to us as our internal "self" moves forward, upward, improving and growing...we always remember where we came from. Appreciate what you have gone through to become what you ARE AND WHAT YOU ARE BECOMING! Be exceedingly GRATEFUL to those who we learn from... who have made our lives easier by "building a house" for us to appreciate and enjoy...until the time comes for improvement and change. Yet never forget the simple. The "old house"...built on a foundation of true love.
Love you all!
Wendy

Public Speaking...OH MY!

Hello everyone!
So blogging is pretty easy...just let the ol'feelins and words flow...just keep typing, type, type, type. OK...then there is public speaking. YIKES. I must admit that this is MY GREATEST FEAR in the WORLD. I would rather have a ROOT CANAL..or GIVE BIRTH TO A 10 POUND WATER MELON! I really don't know the exact reason I am so afraid...just all these eyes looking at me and waiting to hear something "intelligent" come out of my mouth????? AHHHHH! I FEEL MY WHOLE body and MIND SEIZE UP...sorta like I would imagine my car would without any oil in it for like a YEAR! Might have something to do with NOT KNOWING WHAT TO SAY that will make logical sense when my mind is going like 5 o'clock rush hour in LA! Probably doesn't HELP ANY to have ADHD!!!! So focus, again, I think is one of the answers...how do I do that when my mind is buzzing like a beehive 24/7? Another thing I need is..practice, practice, practice...what is that saying...practice makes perfect? So that's what I did today-be so proud of me! I actually got up and spoke in front of a few hundred people-voluntarily at church! WOW! Don't ask me how I did, can't remember, don't even know exactly what I said...all I know is I DID IT, and I AM PROUD THAT I EVEN STOOD AT THE PODIUM AND SPOKE INTO THE MICROPHONE! One step closer to getting that OLD FEAR out of MY WAY OF SUCCESS! I will be so HAPPY when I feel comfy enough to get up and actually speak FROM MY HEART. My heart is good and full of beauty...I can't WAIT TO GET to EXPRESSING WHAT'S IN MY HEART...the real "ME"...MY SPIRIT SELF! Meanwhile, will you all please bare with me and be patient?
Thanks all-I love each of you!
-Wendy